yeah yeah, haven’t posted in a while, eat dicks

Blogged under Commentary, Journal Entry, Work by Kris Kane on Friday 26 September 2008 at 11:57 pm

I read a book about how to attract people to your blog. Headlines that belittle and offend them was hint #3.

Quite a fucking lot is going on lately, but there’s a fair amount I can’t write about openly because of pending uh … man, I can’t even describe it adequately without risking someone finding it and complicating matters by spreading it around. That sounds really bad, probably. Nothing major, everyone in the inner circle is healthy, reasonably happy (or reasonably unhappy, for the Freudians in the audience), no one’s getting married, divorced, killed (yet) or anything “status changing.” Email me if you’re really interested, or call, I’m trying to be better about answering the phone. I know where it is right now, for instance.

Couple more cryptic notes on the off chance that those they’re intended for check in (very fucking doubtful).

J., I owe you many calls back, I hope you’re not taking it personally, I’m just flaky on a level that adderall can’t seem to touch. I’ve got a huge collection of CDs to send you, you come up in conversation almost daily, all the usual much love shit.

K., sorry to hear about your loss. I never know if it’s best to call with belated condolences or if it’s just opening fresh wounds, so I tend not to mention it when I find out later. I know it was a long struggle, and I know how close you were, and I’m just … so sorry.

T., how’s the kid? I owe you email, I have video of some really interesting lectures to send you, I instantly thought of you, your work, and your new mom status when I saw these.

L., I really owe you a call, and we really need to clear time to hang out and just chat. Every time I think “I should be writing” I hear you berating me for not doing it on any of the numerous occasions you’ve done it, and I’m grateful to you for that.

I’m forgetting people and leaving some out because a) as is usual on a Friday, I should have been in bed several hours ago and b) I really don’t think too many people read this.

General thought of the day. The market changed complexion four weeks ago when the Sunday market split—the old location opened, and most of the “old location” regulars went back there, leaving the “new location” regulars and people who think it’s the better geographical choice (and really, is just fucking is) behind. There are a lot of other issues involved in the market, which I won’t go into, but just the change, not seeing some of the same people every Sunday—and these are years-long relationships at this point—has changed the entire “feel” of both days. And I suppose it’s inevitable, but a certain amount of eye-opening has occured, and it’s just all a bit sad. Both days are less enjoyable now. Maybe it’s just the weather, but we’ve discussed it and we feel a palpable “and that was the end of a golden age” sort of moment. Though golden age is stretching it—more like brass.

We’ll be at the annual street fair down the block tomorrow, by the way—in what looks to be constant rain all day. We are driven more and more toward brick-and-mortar.

So this writing thing.

Blogged under Work, Writing by Kris Kane on Friday 3 March 2006 at 8:00 pm

It’s funny, almost everyone who knows me knows I’m a writer, and almost no one has read anything substantive I’ve written. This, I’ve decided, is stupid and untenable, so I’m going to be posting more and more stuff here.

Then there’s the whole “omg u need teh password lolz” thing. I password protect my writing for a variety of reasons. There are people out there who steal writing and pass it off as their own. Big deal, kind of, because I’m so jaded and bitter about the publishing industry that I’m not sure I’d ever try traditional channels to get my writing published (if you’re interested, let me know, but I can go on and on to a boring degree about why the publishing industry sucks). And “self published” is an appellation like “community theater,” as far as I’m concerned. Most self published things suck, and I don’t want to be in that club. No offense to community theater folks, but if you’re honest, you know what I mean. Most guys running off copies of their shit on office copiers after work are doing it because that’s the only option they have.

But there are other reasons to password protect shit. The stuff I post is usually first or second draft, and raw, and I don’t necessarily want strangers coming along and sticking their fingers in my uncooked cake batter and then cunting off to me about how it tastes like eggs and sugar.

I also occasionally write about things I don’t necessarily want family to find—for instance, I’ve got a couple of sex scenes in some novels I’m writing that I could use feedback on, and I don’t think I could handle a conversation with my parents about “that first blow job scene in the Oak Island novel.” There are also questions. If I write about a character who smoked heroin in his twenties, all of a sudden I’ve got concerned siblings and cousins sending me email or something, right?

If you’re family and you’re reading this, I love you, but I think it’s important for writers to have boundaries of accountability in their writing. I can’t necessarily be a good writer and a good son or brother in the same breath, and there’s some shit I write that may make one or both of us uncomfortable. If you really want to read my stuff, get a free hotmail account and lie about who you are—say you found my livejournal account and you’d like to read my writing. I’ll send you the password and maybe you’ll be horrified and concerned, but we’ll never talk about it, and that’s kind of what I’m after. If I ever publishing anything major, we’ll have to deal with these issues then, but while stuff is still incubating, I can’t have the additional distraction of worrying about upsetting my mom with my subject matter.

That said, and here’s the important part, I realize the whole password thing is a huge pain in the ass. I realize it’s a big boundary to getting my stuff read by the people I know, and by the people I don’t know, and just in general. You have no reason to jump through this hoop to get to my writing, and I don’t expect you to tolerate what is probably just my neurotic bullshit. I’ll make it as easy for you as possible—just reply to this post, or any other I might make mentioned protected writing, and I’ll email you the password. It’s best to list your email address as like “kris at menace dot com” to avoid getting spammed, and you don’t need to register to make comments now (note to all you shitmouthed spammers: I do have comment moderation turned on, so your ads for shitty websites and fake viagra will never be seen by anyone but me, and every time I mark your shit for deletion, I hate you).

I’m posting, in a few minutes, an excerpt from a novel I’ve mentioned (I think) called Ice Fishing. It’s more or less about a guy who becomes convinced that the serial recurring dreams he has are really just another reality, and the people there are doing the same thing—dreaming the same dreams. There are a lot of other issues, but that’s probably enough of an introduction to the writing I’ll be posting.

I’ll be writing more about this project and some possible influences it may have in the next few days.

(Postscript: it’s a few minutes later, here’s the link to the writing.)

“Crappy Science Fiction.”

Blogged under Work, Writing by Kris Kane on Tuesday 25 October 2005 at 6:29 pm

This is how I categorize all of my genre writing. Crappy science fiction, crappy horror, whatever I’m working on that fits into a genre. For someone who makes a minor religion out of the rejection of categorization, this is a pretty indefensible position, but it’s an elitist pitfall I generally dive right into when discussing my own genre work. It’s like living in a neighborhood you’re ashamed of.

Genre fans will put up with a lot of shit, I think partly as an extension of the “he may be an asshole, but he’s our asshole” phenomenon. Lost plot points, two dimensional characters, broken similes and mixed metaphors. Even in generally lauded works like Stanislaw Lem’s Solaris, there’s a lot of forced exposition. The first couple of pages are full of descriptions of the mechanics of space travel—launching and docking—which are a familiar shorthand in works of science fiction, emblematic devices intended to set the tone. “BEHOLD! I am describing a docking sequence complete with an oddly metallic automatic voice! Holy shit, it’s science fiction!”

The problem with familiar shorthand is that it’s familiar shorthand: unchallenging, completely without innovation, and lazy. The opening paragraphs of Solaris are especially egregious considering the choice of detail. Lem’s protagonist describes climbing into a claustrophobic little capsule in preparation for launch, then a laborious docking process, but the whole point A to point B thing is relegated to “a rustling outside, like a shower of fine sand.” Lots of detail on what the writer can imagine or easily explain, and a little vague muttering about all the shit (like interstellar travel) that’s more difficult to pin down. It’s just bad writing, but not remarkable because it’s science fiction. Science fiction readers expect the “rustling outside” shit now, hollow narrative devices, hackneyed launch sequences both figurative and literal. They’re like the cheap rush you get from eating a candy bar. BEHOLD! You taste sugar! Holy shit, you must be eating!

It’s just bad writing. You see these “beginner errors” all over established science fiction, the launch sequence being a particularly good example. A lot of Composition 101 work starts with descriptions of minutiae—people getting out of bed, brushing their teeth, eating breakfast—that has nothing to do with forwarding the plot and no substantive value to the overall story. Beginning writers have to be cautioned against this, and introduced to the concept of backstory and offstage action, which seem like common sense but are counter-intuitive in execution. Start the story with an action relating to the plot, or set the scene through the use of evocative and appropriate language, or, hopefully, both. Plot and poetry.

Brash statement: most science fiction could be improved by aggressive (even hostile) editing. Solaris for instance. The first three pages would be improved if they were reduced to the sentence that appears at the top of the third page: “I had missed the precious moment when the planet first came into view.  Now it was spread out before my eyes; flat, and already immense.” It establishes travel, destination, setting and place, and it gives a hint that something’s not quite right. The poetry is a nice touch, but the brevity is the real treasure, the scarcity of the words making them more valuable. It’s an opening I’d be proud of—plot and poetry pushing against each other, creating an engine that drives a compelling beginning.

A lot of “literary” (non-genre) writing has too much poetry and not enough plot (and even then the poetry can be pretty suspect). Lots of supposedly pretty language with not a lot otherwise going on. If you’ve ever read a book that seemed to wander all over the fucking place, introducing characters and problems and complications without doing too much else, you’ve encountered what I think is the major problem of “turn of the 21st century” literary fiction, namely the devaluation of plot. It’s also a major problem in independent film (a movie like The Station Agent is a great example of this—intriguing personalities, the introduction of a lot of “compelling conflict,” then roll credits).

But genre writing has the other problem. Too much shorthand—plot devices, hackneyed language, reliance on the superficial and trivial for setting and atmosphere—is like the strings holding up make-believe rockets made of coffee cans and sparklers in early science fiction movies: horribly distracting to the non-fan. Not to beat this horse too far into the afterlife, but the “launch sequence style,” again, is a perfect example. Imagine opening any non-sci fi story that way:

James carefully got dressed, first his white cotton socks, which kept his feet warm but still dry through the capillary action of the fibers comprising their material, then his work boots, constructed mostly of animal hide, bound together with stitching and lacing made of man-made fiber, a synthetic that had been largely developed during the last global conflict known to his kind. The rest of his garments were a blend of these natural and synthetic fibers, with fixers and fastenings made out of metal and engineered plastics. He then walked down the narrow hallway, faintly illuminated by the mid-sized yellow sun of his planet, and began to make breakfast: a beverage consisting of hydrogen and oxygen passed through the pulverized seed of a native shrub, and the eggs of an avian species that had probably evolved from ancient creatures many times their size, creatures so huge and powerful that the scientists of James’s planet, in a specialized language common to their kind, called them “Thunder Lizards.”

Even just writing that example leaves me twitchy, irritated and bemused, because it really isn’t that much of an exaggeration of the style. Never mind that this story would have nothing to do with what James wears or eats first thing in the morning. If it were science fiction, describing these things in self-important, almost obsessive language would be if not expected, then certainly not remarkable. It’s shit writing, cluttering up the experience of the reader by throwing a lot of pointless, cheap words in his face. Going back to the candy bar metaphor, it’s the equivalent of a lot of empty calories, providing short-term pay off but ultimately a nasty downside that leaves its consumer hungry, flabby, and with a vague sense of being ripped off. Worse, it gradually destroys in them the ability to appreciate anything not preloaded with these clichéd, useless, lazy passages.

Like a lot of sugar junkies, science fiction fans will offset the crash by consuming more of the same, in as much quantity as they can get. Hardcore sci fi fans even tend to reject science fiction that doesn’t rely on those cheap gimmicks—”where the fuck is our sugar coating?”—and there are some otherwise fine examples of science fiction literature out there cluttered up with the trappings of the genre, perhaps because without those trappings, it would fail to attract the serious (non-genre) audience (after all, it’s just sci fi), and lose the audience of sci fi fans it could otherwise rely on. Solaris, again, serves as a good example. It’s mostly a great read, with a lot of interesting things to say about reality, perception and intelligence, even an understanding of a sort of divinity, but there’s just a little of that cheapness to it that I find unpleasantly distracting, if I’m reading with discernment. In places, notably that opening, it’s a lot like a chocolate-covered steak, and that chocolate covering is almost genre-defining. I wonder how it would have been received minus the shitty launch sequence semaphore—BEHOLD! Science fiction!—and I wonder if Lem included that stuff specifically to reach an audience more inclined to consider the themes he reaches for in Solaris. That he perhaps loses or alienates more “serious” readers is a sad side effect, a symptom of the genre.

I’m a more “serious” reader most of the time, but when I read without the full burden of “critical discernment,” I can throw myself into it and enjoy the junkfood aspect of science fiction for what it is. It’s in that same way that I love a lot of Philip K. Dick’s writing. The themes of his later works are “literary” in nature, even existential and intellectual—the definition of self and identity, the basis of reality, the juxtaposition of observation, interpretation, and self-awareness, a fundamental struggle of true vs. false when definitions of either are shifting—but they’re often clothed in some of the worst pretensions of the genre.

It probably doesn’t help that Dick’s signature pieces were written after his immersion in late ’60s drug culture and his language and thinking informed by that time period in a way that can now sometimes seem as quaint and a silly as the rainbow bell bottoms and crochet vests of the era. The thematic drive behind the stories survives and endures, as testified to by the continuing adaptation of his works by Hollywood studios, most recently A Scanner Darkly, in production at the time of this writing and due out in 2006 (and I should mention Blade Runner, Total Recall, Minority Report (and I know I’m forgetting one or two others) if only because so many people don’t realize these are adaptions of Dick’s novels and short stories), but the original texts are flawed and cluttered by shit that wouldn’t be tolerable outside the genre. These are generally sound works with a lot of depth and complexity, but are degraded by various pieces of “familiar shorthand,” sci fi conventions intended to set the stage with as little effort and thought as possible. In my mind’s eye, I see the cardboard Daleks of early Dr. Who cavorting across a stage with canes and straw hats, wearing the red-and-white striped blazer of the vaudevillian.

If I’m typical of slightly more demanding readers of science fiction, I’m a large part of the “… but he’s our asshole!” problem. As a consumer, I willingly overlook sugary crap I would never forgive in my own work because I expect it—it’s just sci fi, after all. Stupid launch sequences, bad aliens with heads and faces and two arms and two legs and two eyes, laser guns that pew pew pew through the soundless vacuum of space are all to be expected, if not celebrated, because it’s science fiction. And those things are charming in their way. ¡Viva la junk food! Right?

I don’t know. Maybe sometimes? But this is what makes this neighborhood a ghetto, this is why writing in this genre vaguely embarrasses me, this is why I prefix “crappy” before anything that isn’t literary. To be fair, horror, mystery, spy novels, police procedurals all have their stupid little sugar coatings, their junk food mechanisms, preloaded for the cheap and early payoff, alternately overlooked or embraced by their followers and fans. And you could certainly preface most of my “literary” writing with the descriptor “crappy” and not be wholly inaccurate.

But I’m writing specifically about why I’m embarrassed about writing science fiction, or why I feel like the time I spend working on this stuff is less valuable than the time I spend writing outside of genre. Because junk is expected, because the bar is generally so low, because I could (and I’m sure still do, despite my best efforts) forgive and overlook a lot of shit and sugar in my own genre writing. It’s crappy science fiction because it’s a degraded genre, and it’s a degraded genre because more isn’t expected of it. I feel the same sense of sheepishness when I’m “caught” reading science fiction. There are some books I dearly love that I wouldn’t read in public, and when I see someone hunched over a tattered science fiction paperback in a Starbucks, I think less of them for daring to read it in public (but part of that is the “Look What I’m Reading In Starbucks!” effect, which is a subject for another overlong and rambling blog entry). Science fiction, as long as it’s permitted or expected to be full of sugary little shortcuts, will never transcend the limitations of the genre and will forever be confined to that narrow little section in the local Bookoplex.

If more were expected of it, it could be great literature. Homer’s Iliad is science fiction of a sort, as is Shakespeare’s The Tempest. If its fans were less forgiving of clunky structure and sugary shorthand, it could transcend the junk food role and become the main course, in a way more readily than non-genre literary fiction because of the vibrant and volatile metaphoric language available to both its writers and its readers. Taking the example of extant Ancient Greek literature, the gods and demi-gods act on a landscape they tower over as forces of the divine, but they are forces of the divine with human faces and human fallibility.

The Iliad’s Achilles is human flesh as the vessel of divine wrath, ultimately (and knowingly, willingly) destroyed by the mortal weakness inherent in that flesh (though it takes divine intervention, which is all over the Iliad, to do it). The entirety of The Tempest relies on sorcery and illusion for setting (and its opening may be the great-grandfather of the launch sequence). Through Prospero’s abilities to twist perception and bend forces of nature (and its lesser embodiments in the fairy Ariel and the deformed Caliban, light and dark echoes of each other), he manipulates reality and in effect history, forcing confession and repentance, which in turn is transformed into redemption and a purified, bloodless vindication.

What’s my fucking point, right? It’s the “science fiction” of these stories that allow the themes to flower. It’s Achilles’s divine parentage that serves as the catalyst of wrath, and his mortal siring that spells his downfall. What a hell of a cautionary tale; though the Ancient Greeks no doubt saw Achilles’s death as more of a redemption and less a warning (considering the concepts of glory and self-worth inherent in their society, but again—topic for another time, since this single post is already creaking under its own weight), the story survives the passage of time and allows us, in an age less blood-spattered and fiery, to carefully consider the costs of revenge and the weight of appeasing our own fury. Without the “science fiction” in The Tempest, we’re reduced to a story about a wronged old man, shipwrecked on an island with a young daughter and a couple of creepy servants. Allowing for sorcery and illusion, we have a magically wrought storm at the center of that story that itself serves as a metaphor for the great and violent changes we sometimes need to make to reform our wrongs and fulfill the potential of those we have wronged—even if those great and violent changes don’t actually exist anywhere but in our imaginations.

Yeah, alright, maybe I’m pushing it a little with The Tempest bit, but the basis of my assertion remains true. Allow for divine intervention and magic—science fiction—and you have more thematic tools available to enrich the literature you’re reading (or writing). Instead of cheap gimmicks intended to quickly and easily create a setting which is ultimately unimportant to the narrative thread of theory, the “launch sequence” (and all the other clichés of science fiction) should be harnessed like a herd of Pegasi and used to allow story (and reader) to go places it otherwise couldn’t reach.

It’s what I’m trying to do with my own “crappy science fiction.” The handful of story ideas I’m working on rely on central themes that wouldn’t be possible in any other setting. A mostly empty colony ship, depopulated by some sort of plague or accident, is a metaphor for isolation and alienation. The protagonist, trained as a historian and librarian and brought out of a deep freeze as one of a tiny group of survivors, struggles to find relevance and usefulness in a society bereft of history. He struggles to remember everything he’s ever read so he can try to recreate a history to replace that lost when all the “books” of his society-in-transit were destroyed by fire or sabotage. He wanders around this mostly empty city-ship intended to house a hundred thousand people, now one of a dozen left alive, mourning all his friends, his family, and the history of his civilization (which is sort of how I feel every time I go to Wal Mart). I wouldn’t be able to work with these themes in as facile a way if I couldn’t use the setting of “a colony ship in transit between stars.” The setting informs and acts on the theme in important ways. Or at least (as I realize I’m sounding like an arrogant asshole in talking about my own work this way), that’s what I’m trying for.

It’s “science fiction” itself that allows the best of science fiction to do things no other kind of writing can do. Even in Solaris, which I’ve probably unfairly singled out, the central question of the novel can be interpreted as “does God love us, or is he just fucking with us?” and it is a question that would be impossible to handle as deftly and in as nonvolatile a fashion outside the framework of science fiction. But that launch sequence …

As long as science fiction—or any genre fiction, or independent film or studio system movies—rely on the various tricks and allowances expectations of their audiences, it will fail to achieve the greatness they could otherwise attain. That’s why I love science fiction, and hate it, and watch my favorite Twilight Zone episodes with bittersweet grin, and why I’ll continue to call my own genre writing “crappy,” even if it isn’t entirely true.